First and foremost, happy 2019 to all you Rockstars!! I hope the holidays treated you well.
I would like to take a second and apologize for the months of radio silence on here, or maybe it’s been a year? I’ve lost track of time amidst the chaos of planning a wedding, getting married, moving to a new state, getting a job and trying to be settled in this cold tundra they like to call North Dakota!
This little treat is to explain to you guys what the heck I’ve been doing with my time off. I took a little extra time for myself to get accustomed to the new home and state, and I even made a trip back to Wyoming for the holidays! So here we go.
Leading up to the move was so exciting—I was trying to live up every moment in Minnesota that I could. It was also during the holidays, which is already a fun time of year. There’s shopping, making plans, visiting your family… So all the dreaded things that happen during a move were masked by this beautiful time of year.
And the holidays were wonderful and I’m so blessed I was able to spend this time with my family. I was able to go home for Christmas for the first time in FOUR YEARS. And it was much needed.
So, when we finally made it home to Bismarck, we still had New Year’s to celebrate. (Which, in all honesty, is kind of a sucky holiday to not know anyone..)
I’ve been hanging out at home and not doing a damn thing ever since. I’ve watched a lot of Grey’s Anatomy… Have still managed to drink mostly coffee and be dehydrated. I’ve also been hitting the gym almost everyday, which, don’t get me wrong, is awesome. I’ve also managed to catch up on last year’s sleep. No kidding, I have slept way more than I should. I don’t know how I will function on less than 8 hours asleep again…
Anyway, this boredom has left me in a funk. I don’t think I’ll be out of it completely until I’m back to work fulltime. You see, I don’t function well when I am not busy. And to make it better, we’ve been tight on cash with the holidays behind us and three weeks of no work from me. I haven’t even been able to online shop, what is the world coming to.
I’ve been stuck permanently scrolling through social media, which has done nothing but drop my self esteem and body image. I’ve also found a new hobby of nagging Bryce for the littlest things, because that’s the only thing I have to do here. Oh, and not to mention I’ve only unpacked about half of my belongings.
The reality of this move is that I am lonely and bored. It’s no one’s fault either. It’s just a new place where I know very little people and your girl hates house work. Like HATES it. I hate unpacking, cleaning, cooking, basically all the things that make you a good housewife. I think I find clothes I suspect to be dirty that are really clean and I wash them. And there’s not really anywhere else to hang anything since we still have yet to buy any bedroom furniture…
During this period of boredom, I’ve come to the realization that I will probably work forever. Just because if I didn’t have work or something else to do, I would die.
So while all of you are grinding and killing this new year, I have been a sack of potatoes watching Grey’s Anatomy with the fuzziest slippers on known to man. And my busy-body self feels ashamed to have been doing nothing for three weeks.
I know I should appreciate the downtime, but enough is enough and I am thankful orientation starts Monday.
I WILL TRY TO MAKE THIS A REGULAR THING AGAIN. I appreciate you all who’ve tuned in.